And I shouldn’t have gone to the party.

I don’t want her to think I went for her.
I really need to do something about this place. Too much stuff around me, and I feel heavy.
I was so calm and relaxed in Texas, and noticing that change has helped me keep perspective on what should and should not get me uncalm and unrelaxed in my home town.
I had a list of things to do today. I didn’t do any of them.
I even forgot to take my pills.
No one showed up to play last night.
Waiting for the shuttle to land.