You were always on my mind.

It’s easy. Easy to reach out and tap the resources of an ex. There’s always that moment when you know, or you think you know, that one night would be fine. You can handle it. Ex can handle it. You make assumptions about how that person feels. You know from experience how to get what you want from that person because you know what that person likes. You share a history. A higher level of comfort. There’s a lot to be said for feeling good. More to be said for making someone else feel good. What stops you is the belief that moving forward is what you want, and acting on these momentary impulses would be a step back. One of the many things you’ve tried and failed, and tried again. Will try again.